Things I Wish I Knew (before applying for Medi-Cal)

Hi, all! I wanted to write a post about my experience with Medi-Cal, the generous program of California state for people with low or no income who need health insurance. Starting a new business after leaving my job meant that I wasn’t going to have any employer-provided insurance, nor steady income to purchase my own… Continue reading Things I Wish I Knew (before applying for Medi-Cal)

Symphony (Teamwork and collaboration)

Well, hello there. Fancy seeing you here. Day 4! Day late again, but fuck it. Symphony Let’s make it happen! I had an amazing interaction with my team from my “9-to-5” yesterday. Technically, I’m on PTO (paid time off), but the school year is quickly approaching and our individual time-off plans overlapped such that we… Continue reading Symphony (Teamwork and collaboration)

“None of this is real.”

I was text chatting with a friend of mine who recently went through a bad break-up. She said she was trying not to be angry. I asked her, “Why not be angry?” and she said, “None of this is real. It’s all an illusion.” Now, this produced an interesting response in me, converse to a… Continue reading “None of this is real.”


I have no idea what purpose this post will serve, but I'm writing it anyway. I am exhausted. Flat out, running on fumes, people looking at me saying, “Ryan, are you OK?” exhausted. The wax from the candle is pooling on both sides of me and I'm wondering, “How long is this f#(&ing candle?!” I… Continue reading Exhausted

Do What You Can’t Do

Write songs you can’t sing. Choreograph dances you can’t dance. Celebrate both your limits and what you have to offer. So often, people treat their limits like the end of the road. “I’m not good enough. I’m not smart enough. People don’t like me.” Thank you, Stuart Smalley. So often, people use their limits as… Continue reading Do What You Can’t Do

Indelicate? Me?

When I was growing up, I was fairly soft spoken. OK, maybe that’s not accurate. I was shy. OK, well, maybe I was afraid to be my loud inner-self? None of this is quite right. Let’s start over. Won’t Someone Please Think of the Ants?! One sunny afternoon, in my backyard, around 5 years of… Continue reading Indelicate? Me?

Spiritual Truth: You’re an Asshole

It's better that you just accept it now -- you're not a nice person. You constantly judge people, are myopic in your approach to situations, and regularly see yourself as a victim. Just admit it -- you're an asshole. I had a great conversation with my students on Monday around Pathos and “Good Enough” responsibility.… Continue reading Spiritual Truth: You’re an Asshole